As I entered my office this morning, closed my door for a brief moment of prayer before starting my day, kneeling by a chair, I was very aware of myself.  I was drawn here to pray.  I wanted to start my day this way.  I chose to do this.  But, in my heart, it felt like I was only going through the motions.

The words that I once heard long ago began to ring in my own ears:  "The closer you get to God, the dirtier you feel." 

I stayed there for a moment longer.  I prayed.  I asked myself, "Why are you here, kneeling and praying to God?" 

I honestly wish I could say to you that I have an insatiable hunger for God.  Most of the time, I do not.  Sometimes, I do.  Although I wish to study the Bible everyday, learn more about God, and how He has operated in the past, and is still actively working today, I still get in His way.  My head goes before my heart.  I think I can achieve something apart from God.  Then, I stop and ask God to forgive my pride.

A great man of faith, Smith Wigglesworth, had an insatiable hunger for God.  He never went more than fifteen minutes without praying, reading the Bible, and talking about God.  If you and I were to do this today, we would be labeled a "fanatic".  "Gone off the deep end!"  "To heavenly minded to be any earthly good!" 

In his book, "Smith Wigglesworth:  The Secret of his Power", author Albert Hibbert wrote:  "The words on a card once sent me well sum up Wigglesworth.   All of self, none of God.  Less of self, more of God.  None of self, all of God.""

If only we would exalt God and give Him all the glory that is due Him instead of taking the glory for ourselves, think how much better we would be?  Everything we do is because of God given ability.  Everything we have is because God has good plans for us, not plans of evil.

Do you hunger for God?  Does it scare you when God moves close in your life?  Does the presence of God feel so unbearable to you and foreign that you want to run from it?  Maybe it is because you are still sitting high on the throne that was made for God, not for man? 

Why not jump down from that throne and develop an insatiable hunger for God, instead of yourself?  Don't feel alone.  I will jump down with you.